Monday, July 20, 2015

New Adventures Start With a Look Back

As I embark on this new adventure, I believe it should begin with a look back at where it began.  Don't worry, this won't be about the day I was born or to the beginning of time, but it will be more serious than I usually post.  Just to where my adventure, my life began with my dear husband.  I find that new, great love can often inspire us to be better.  To be more.  I am truly blessed that he makes me want to be the best person, the best partner that I can be.  He inspires me most every day.  He is supportive and has even told me that he loves my 'tummy.'  If that isn't love, I don't know what is.  He stands by me and allows me to be myself- thick or thin (me, that is).

When we first started dating, we had been friends for over a year and I had been in love with him for most of that time.  Sad, but true.  His charm and charisma still sometimes stop me in my tracks.  His bravery in the face of all that we have been through is staggering.  He is brilliant, beautiful, bold and maddening at the same time.

Once upon a time, I used to write poetry.  I rarely share it because it is often too personal, too raw.  But today, inexplicably, I find myself yet again inspired.  I want you to know what I saw in him, in myself more than 10 years ago.  Things I still see today and that's how I know that my adventure is still in its infancy.  There is so much more to come.

Those who know me, know I have a favorite phrase.  It is only 2 words, but they sum up life without fuss.  "Love is..."  And then you get to fill in the blank.  It is a reminder to me that love is in the little, every day minutia.  And here I will share a bit about what I believe about love.

Without further ado:

Love is Poetry.

Love is chaotic, yet 

Love is palpable, yet

Love is pure, yet

Love is wholesome, yet

Love is gentle, yet

Love is loneliness, yet
I am not alone.

Love is beyond my grasp, yet
I hold it in my heart.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

My New Plan. To WIN Every Day

Hello there!  It has been a while.  Ii didn't have much to say about the subject of weight loss since I have gained most of the weight back that I lost writing this blog.  I think I am going to try again to inspire/disgust/entertain you with my goofy little antics.

To start with, I am going small...  I plan to WIN every day.  Allow me to explain what I mean:

Step 1)     I will do something active every  day.  Even if that just entails walking on my lunch break for 10 minutes.  I need to move more to burn calories, clear my mind and get myself back on a track where weight loss is possible.  Not being able to take a full, deep breath in my favorite jeans is not good times.  Oh, who am I kidding?!?!  I cannot sit or stand in them at this point.  Bend over and buckle/tie my shoes?  It's all just a fantasy at this moment.  Dream ON, sista!

Step 2)     I will make at least one better food/beverage decision every day.  Double butterburger with all the trimmings?  YUM.  If I choose the grilled chicken sandwich instead?  I'm calling it a win.  Cold cut sub instead of half of a large pizza?  Win!  If I drink one diet soda instead of my favorite, painfully caloric beers?  Win.  A glass of water instead of that bottle of wine?  (And yes, I said bottle)  Win.

This plan is about baby steps for me.  I got discouraged last time having very little to celebrate.  To make sure that doesn't happen to me again, in this plan, I win EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

Pretty sure that's a plan I can live with.  And soon, I hope to build on it.  Care to join me?